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| dear god its been sooo friggen long since ive written i forgot how to 1-get here 2-write in this dealy haha. wow... lately things have been meh--but the past week i had finals and they sucked ass i know i did good but still no one likes to study for a rediculous amount of hours-- but last night was fun i hung out with scottington sex lover ville (hehehehe) and nick. I got the sheeet tickled out of me and the krunk slapped out of my ass--only left with a few red hand prints to remember the "" good times "" right? haha. I let nick drive my car, never thought i would let ne one drive my car haha. wow. and now my car has a nice after smell ( if u will ) of rubber haha , oh well my baby looks ok. and tonight there is the waef show at knights o columbus so YAY!! its gonna rock like no other, so fun for me and prolly u, but apart form all the good things there has been the bad, like the whole kris and colin dealy, thats over tho we r jsut friends and for the moment that is GREAT!!!!!! Turnaboot is coming up soon, ive never been so i dont know what im missing, but i kinda wanna go this year, only problem is i dont know who to ask!!!! and this whole romy being single thing doesnt work for me. haha... im no good when im single. well then im going to go see scottington sex lover ville at work, so im out, bye bitches... xoxox | | |
| wow its been a while and i hate the world. peace out! | | |
| sheeeeet. im a fucking horirble person | | |
| i just dont know what to do. i can make up my mind and thats only hurting people too. Every thing i do hurts some one and it sucks. | | |
| I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone
Anger wells inside of me
I see me, frowning in your eyes
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away......
i cant explian it in any other way- i let something amazing go. I let one of my best freinds, one of the people i care about the most-just completly disreagrded him. And knowing that ive casued him to be upset how he told me he was has never made me feel worse. For the first time in as long as i can remember-i jsut sat there and cried last night cause i felt so horrible. I dont understand how i can be so happy with my decision, yet have it hurt someone i care so much about...and i dont blame him for being so angry dissapointed hurt -i just wish he didnt feel that way-casue right now, id give anything to take any of the pain that ive caused him away.
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